Saturday, November 06, 2010

I am Alive and so is My Baby!

I'm just checking in because I know so many of you want an update.


Baby Lawns is here!!


She was born on Tuesday, October 26th at 11:41 am via unplanned C-section, which I will tell those of you who are interested about in time. The baby is perfectly ok and I am healing from the surgery very well. I am shockingly now only 4 lbs away from my pre-pregnancy weight, though my body is still all swollen and weirdly shaped. I'm not worrying about it. Things will go back to normal in a few months.


Baby Lawns is small and sweet. She looks like neither me nor my husband nor a combination of us. She is just herself we suppose, although she has my coloring with future chestnut hair and brown eyes. Everyone compliments her little pointy nose. She is generally quiet and sleepy and does not like to sleep alone, so we have to hold her all the time, but we don't mind. She has had quite a few issues with feeding, but we're working through it. My child is a "weak and ineffective sucker." That means I try to feed her and she falls asleep and won't suck hard enough to get anything into her mouth. We are seeing a lactation consultant and our pediatrician has advised constant breastfeeding. It hasn't been entirely pleasant, but it could be much worse too. I worry incessantly that she is starved and that it's my fault and then I worry that she is going to stop breathing. I hear this is not all that abnormal of me.


But like I said, we're working through it.


The good news is that we got to come home to our own home. It isn't finished yet. We still have some detail work to complete, but it's more than livable and we've been very comfortable and happy in it. I think the baby feels that her home is in our arms so it doesn't matter to her where she is.


We're all still recovering and adjusting. I have some PPD to work through as well, but I'm trying to get used to my new life which is very different from my old life. I find myself wondering if I'll ever be able to cook dinner or clean the house again and I feel like I have hurt my cat's feelings of all things.


On a more positive note, I love not being pregnant anymore. I can pee again! My ankles look normal! I can sleep in all kinds of positions and I don't have 24 hour heartburn and reflux! I got through nine months without a single stretch mark! Yay to all of this! 


Overall, pregnancy wasn't as bad as I'd imagined it to be. I handled it remarkably well after the nausea subsided. My body seemed to be able to be pregnant rather easily. The birth, on the other hand, was worse than I had imagined. Usually things are better than I think they are going to be, but the birth was an exception. I don't want to scare the hell out of anyone so I'll spare excessive details. I'll just say that the induction worked, the contractions were bad, labor didn't progress, the baby would not descend, she went into distress, I had an emergency C-section and it turned out she was stuck and couldn't move down because the cord was around her neck and tangling her up. Luckily the doctor and hospital staff worked very quickly to get her out. In fact, they worked so quickly that I was not fully numbed and could feel a lot of the surgery. Thank God it was fast and by the time they stapled me back together like an art project, I was totally numb. Then I had morphine and itched like a junkie for 24 hours, even with Benadryl. It was definitely interesting. I just wish I hadn't been so drugged because I forgot a lot and I didn't get to see my baby for two hours, but I guess it was unavoidable. What matters is that we're fine now and in the meantime I got to discover the joys of the catheter. Free peeing! It was so great to not have to get up to go to the bathroom all the time. I could have gotten used to that and I was kind of sad when they took it out the next day.


Anyway, I must go pick up my poor sleeping baby. I hope all is well with everyone. I miss you guys.

53 comments:

Handy Man, Crafty Woman said...

Congrats on your new baby lawns!! :-) Glad you are ok now, but that birth and C-section sounds kind of scary...YIKES!!!! Hugs to you, you'll be ok. And the baby won't starve. I was afraid my baby would starve, but he didn't. Breastfeeding is WAYYYY harder than anyone thinks. It's so time-consuming and difficult. Hopefully the consultant will help you out. I know mine did.

FreeDragon said...

Congrats! Can we see a pic of her?

Katri said...

I've been looking forward to hearing from you although I've been getting the Twitter updates as well! You're one of my favourite bloggers so I was thrilled to hear BabyLawns was born on my birthday :) I'm sure your baby will get hang of the sucking, but don't let anyone bully you into feeling guilty in case it doesn't work out in the end.

Mamie said...

So glad to hear that all is well! I have missed you, and am looking forward to some great future stories.

Canela will be okay; she just has to adjust, and she will. You still love her just as much, and she'll figure that out.

Congratulations to you all!

Wanderjenn said...

I'm so glad everything is ok. My little girl didn't want to be anywhere but in Mama's and Daddy's arms either. I see that as a sign of her brilliance. Keep at the breastfeeding and she'll get stronger and be more enthusiastic about things. Enjoy - even though I know you're not sleeping. The cat will recover ;).

A said...

Congratulations! So glad to hear you're both well. When my little guy was a newborn he *hated* his crib and bassinet so we ended up making a makeshift bassinet in the middle of our king bed with a couple of boppy pillows and some wedge pillows to make sure he wouldn't roll over or us roll over on him. We were able to keep a hand on him and he felt comforted. Around month 3, he felt more comfortable sleeping in his crib - starting with naps and then working up to nights. Some babies just need that extra touch and comforting. :)

Good luck with the feedings!

Breton Wench said...

Bisoux to all three of you.

Re sleeping in the bed - all of mine cuddled up to us for the first eight weeks. It seemed t make them more secure and better sleepers than any other babies I knew.

FreshHell said...

Congrats! So glad to hear everything went as well as possible (thank goodness for hospitals, huh?). Eventually you will be able to feel like a person again. Months from now. Just get as much rest as you can and enjoy the good moments. Take care.

kerry said...

Congratulations! I'm glad that baby arrived safely and that you're recovering so well!

Welcome to the world, Baby Lawns!

Diana said...

Congratulations mama!

I'm so sorry you had a bad birth experience - but you are right that all that matters now is that you have a darling girl in your arms!

I missed my daughter's first few hours too because my doctor prescribed a sleeping pill that gives you hallucinations. (He didn't think I was going into labor, then she was born not 2 hours later). It is sad and I do regret that. I hope with my next baby I can give birth drug-free and really be fully present.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations Wide Lawns!
What is the baby's name?
Love,
Lil Skraps

joannabug said...

I've read here a long time, but haven't commented for awhile.

I struggled with failure to thrive issues after my twins were born. Sounds like your doctor is telling you exactly the right thing (nursing on demand, lactation consultant), which is fabulous. Another resource that is really, really helpful is kellymom.com Just some fantastic stuff there. And things get so much easier after the first few weeks.

Congratulations!!!!

Sixteen Chickens said...

Excellent news! Yay!

♥ Calamity Anne ♥ said...

CONGRATULATIONS to Mommy, Daddy, and Baby Lawns!!! Enjoy every single second...it goes by too quickly!

Brandie said...

Yay! Baby Lawns and I share the same Birthday (same hour even)! I am so excited and happy for you!

Jen & Rob said...

Many, many congrats and welcome to the outside world baby lawns.

WL, it sounds like your birth experience was quite hectic and you're going through the rough adjustment stage. I remember laughing and crying and crying some more. Power through Mama and when the going gets tough always remember...this too shall pass...

Regarding the nursing....keep it up...by 3-4 weeks you and baby lawns will be golden. A local LC or LLL would be very helpful. I had a super lethargic (pathological jaundice) babe that I had to wake so keep it up..you can do it!

Lauren said...

Congratulations! What a similar experience to mine, i had an unplanned (But not emergency) c-section on Oct 12th for my baby girl! She also had issues nursing, so I'm pumping and using formula right now. I hope your little one figures it out! Thinking of you!

Jennie said...

Congratulations. I've never posted till now. But, some words of insight.

With a C-section, your milk takes longer to come in since the body didn't go through a normal birth, it takes it a while to catch on that it needs to lactate.

Second, I highly recommend consulting your local LLL..Le Leche League. They can provide you with all sorts of knowledge that you never thought would be useful!

Third, 'The Womanly Art of Breastfeeding' helped me out soooo much.

Good Luck my unknown friend!

rosie-b said...

Congrats! That sounds just like when my first was born. Good to know you're doing well, I was starting to worry. Also, I have to say that I'm relieved that I'm not the only one really enjoyed having a catheter. It was such a nice vacation from peeing.

Hang in there with the nursing and the PPD. Jen was right, 3 or 4 weeks and you'll be fine. If not, bottles work too :).

Terminal Degree said...

Congratulations!

My little man is two months old, and like Baby Lawns, he only likes to sleep in our arms. I can't say that I totally mind, because he's so snuggly.

Glad you are recovering ok from the c-section.

a l'ouest said...

Congratulations and welcome to Baby Lawn to this crazy -- but beautiful -- world !

JDogg said...

Glad to hear you are all doing well - enjoy and remember these days as they are fleeting.

Nunya Biznez said...

Yeah! Congratulations! I am happy you are all doing well, I was getting worried. I am also glad that you know that you are "normal" with your feelings and PPD. I bet you were really scared with the emergency C-section. On a lighter note, your cat probably is perturbed right now, but she will get over it. I look forward to more stories when you have time.

Jen said...

Love you! Congrats and welcome baby lawns! Hooray!

Maria de los Angeles said...

Congratulations! I really admire your strength and courage. Baby Lawns is surely as beautiful as you both. Hang in there.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations! So happy to hear you are both doing well. And, even with all the changes, challenges and goings on, you are doing well. I went through a similiar birth event and feeding problems, nearly 21 years ago, and I'm here to tell you, don't listen to a word anyone else tells you should or shouldn't do, follow your instincts and your heart and in a year or so you'll look back and be amazed. Sorry to post anonomysouly, I can't remember my username/password combination. I'm Kim.

Marie said...

Congrats to you and your husband. Welcome little baby and all good wishes to you! So pleased to get all your news and wishing you a complete and speedy recovery.

MamaD4 said...

Congrats and hang in there--it gets a little easier day by day! Take lots and lots of pictures!

Brighton said...

Congrats!! So glad to hear you and baby are doing well : )

Delainie said...

Congratulations!! I'm glad it went ok for you! It's such an exciting, exhausting time. My milk didn't come in for 4 days, and my baby was so early that he hadn't developed the ability to suck yet. It was stressful and I thought he would starve. He didn't. Remember, she's learning just like you - she'll be fine! I wish I could post a pic on here of the big fat baby he turned into!! Also, I itched like a junkie too! So crazy!!

Faye said...

Congratulations! I hope we will see a picture of the little cutie soon. I know you and your husband will be great parents.

Faye said...

Congratulations on your new little girl! I know you and your husband will be great parents. I hope to see a picture of the little cutie soon.

TwistedNoodle said...

Congratulations on your little baby girl. There is nothing like the smell of a newborn baby. Savor every moment as they grow up so quickly. I am looking forward to seeing a pic of her. I do hope you post one, or three, or a bunch.

Natalie said...

Congratulations! Just keep trying on the feeding. I had a c-section, and it didn't seem like my body had caught on that my daughter was born for a week or so. She had a hard time nursing/staying awake also, and I thought I was doing something wrong. The lactation consultant had me brush her face with cold washcloths to keep her awake and feed every two hours. She'll be eating like it's going out of style in no time. :) Lanisoh was my best friend those first few weeks!

anne said...

Awww, thanks for taking the time to update us! So glad you guys are doing well. And I'm glad I'm not the only one who loved the catheter. It was like "I can drink as much as I want and not have to get up - wheeee!" And everyone is right about Canela - she will be pissed off for a bit but will get used to Baby. My cats take crap from no one - except for my kids. They tolerate the fur-pulling and tail grabbing surprisingly well. It's amazing how everyone adjusts!

SunSpotBaby said...

You know, I always kinda thought you would be the kind of gal who would have scheduled Baby Lawn's birth for October 31........

But, I digress. CONGRATULATIONS!! And a comment on your pre-birth post, I really think women would NOT go thru pregnancy and childbirth over and over again if not for the GREAT payoff!! Keep your eye on the prize! Plus, that great human tendency for the memory of pain to recede. (Just wait for the mama grizzly instinct to kick in!)

Again, congratulations to you and new dad, and Baby Lawns will get that sucking thing down pat in no time.

Libbi said...

Oh I can so relate to the Morphine issue. I had it after my Hysterectomy and I tried to claw my face and neck off from the itching. It was horrible.
As you can tell from most of the comments, everything you're feeling is pretty normal and will usually work itself out in time. You'll do great! My only suggestion is to know that EVERYONE thinks they know more than you do and the way they did things is the right way (you'll run into these people everywhere. Strangers on the street or in the stores are notorious at this)but just smile and do it YOUR way. Everyday is a learning day for first time parents. Enjoy it and try to get as much rest as you can.

Jala Pfaff said...

A big congratulations on the fact that everything turned out OK with your new little girl. I wish you the best and hope she figures out the eating thing soon and that you feel better soon.

Katrina said...

Congrats! I am super jealous about no stretch marks!

Grumpy Housewife said...

Mazel Tov!

Everything you are feeling, the panic, the feeling like you will not be able to keep your baby alive, it's all normal. Every decent new mommy feels that way. Even those of us who had a textbook labor and delivery, and few issues with breastfeeding had those feelings. Seriously.

However, the amazing thing is, there IS a learning curve. Within the next few weeks, you will learn how to nurse, diaper, and soothe La Teensy Bebe while in the throes of sleep deprivation. Your baby will not starve, and she will not stop breathing.

Do yourself a favor...stay away from the stories about how "I thought everything was fine, and then it all went to Hell in a handbasket". Seriously. You will only freak yourself out, upset La Teensy, and make everyone miserable.

Welcome to the Mom Club! It's a pretty awesome club, and it gets easier....at least, until the teen years roll around, it gets easier.

P.S. Don't beat yourself up over the C-section. Doll, we read your blog regularly, and you tend to obsess over things you cannot control. This was not your fault, or anyone else's fault, but La Teensy had problems, and fortunately, we live in a time where medical intervention is possible, and is used to save the lives of wee ones, and their mommies, every day. Your baby girl is alive because of that medical intervention. As long as you didn't have to try to squeeze her through your left nostril, all that matters is that you and the baby are here, alive, and healthy. The rest works itself out.

Anonymous said...

I am so glad that you and the little one are doing well. I worried so much when we didn't hear anything ... I'm an old mother hen, no doubt. The day before you posted I clued in to check any twitters... duh.

Congrats, big hugs. Baby Lawns has an awful lot of 'aunties' here that love her already. Enjoy her. Give her kisses from all her 'aunties' who love you both.

~Maureen~

Jean_Phx said...

Glad you are both doing well! Congrats to you and daddy lawns on your new daughter.

JoeinVegas said...

Congratulations! Glad everything eventually came out all right, the cat will recover, looking forward to interesting new story lines.

Anonymous said...

Well done!
Seriously.
Yes, your life has changed, but would you have it any other way? Buckminster Fuller said, "And it came to pass, not to stay." Part of your life is so over, but there are new chapters to explore coming right up! And how great is that!
You'll get over the grief soon.
We all love you.

English said...

So excited that you are back on the blog! lol I know, I know...very selfish of me. We missed you! Sorry about the labor, but CONGRATULATIONS on Baby Lawns!

How is your cat reacting? I think it's cute that you're worried about the cat's feelings. :-) Can't wait to read more...

Robin in Ohio said...

Congratulations to you and Mr. Lawns on your new little "sprout"! May you all live long and happy lives together.

Johnny Virgil said...

congrats!

Life in the mom lane said...

Congrats on your new little one- your "delivery" sounds very much like my first one... including the poor feeding...
and we went on to have two more.... I think it was better for me to have the "worst" delivery first, because the 2 after were a piece of cake in comparison!

Miss Kitty said...

HOORAY!!!

WL, we're all so happy for you, Mr. Lawns, and Baby Lawns.

(((((((HUGS)))))))

booda baby said...

I totally skipped the last paragraph and might have missed something outrageously valuable but nope and no way, it's not happening.

The way I figure, I got the big and most exciting news. We, here, send all our love to you, there. We certainly wouldn't mind also sending a birthday gift, but anonymity rules the day. I guess love will have to do.

eleanorstrousers said...

Welcome Baby Lawns! Your delivery story sounds exactly like a friend of mine's. She was planning some kind of hippie natural childbirth standing up and ended up in an emergency C after some not-fun hours.

She now has superpowers to do things with one hand that I can only hope to acquire. I hope Baby Lawns gives you superpowers as well.

ErinJones said...

Congratulations! This must be the year of the emergency c-section -in addition to my own, yours is the 5th I've heard about recently!
So glad everyone is healthy and relatively happy :)

Anonymous said...

If you think you may ever do this again, I would strongly urge you to look into ICAN (the international ceasarean awareness network). Admittedly, some of the women there have extreme views - but, you won't find a better informed bunch of women anywhere. They can help you heal, avoid problems, avoid a c-section next time, or plan one if you want to... they really know their stuff.

My first was born that way, and I was hurt and astonished that surgical recovery was SO hard.

Hope that you are doing well (five weeks in).

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