Friday, July 31, 2009

Not Such a Good Day

I need a collective prayer from the Internet today. I need something really good to happen. I need some miracles.

Last week Mommom Jewel had a heart attack. I couldn't get up there immediately because I had to finish out the class I'm teaching. Tickets were really expensive so Husband I decided to drive up for a week or ten days or so to be with her.

Now Canela is very sick. She is staying at the animal hospital right now and the cost has been unimaginable, but I'm really just concerned about my beautiful, beloved little kitty.

My heart is broken and I'm sick with worry about my grandmother and my cat and then I feel guilty because I don't want to leave Canela here alone with a cat sitter, because God knows what will happen if I'm not here to watch her and then how could I be so awful to not go see my sick grandmother because of a cat. Yet, in my heart the two loves and worries and fears for both of them seem almost equal. But how can they be? How can I equate my grandmother with a cat? I feel like a terrible person and I don't have a solution. I don't want to have to choose between them. I feel like a horrible person if I don't go see my grandmother and I feel like a horrible person leaving a sick cat. I can't see a solution and taking Canela on the roadtrip with us is not an option, so forget that.

Please say a prayer for my grandmother, for Canela and for me and if you have a solution or any ideas, please let me know.

21 comments:

KT said...

Definitely praying for you...

Anonymous said...

What a terrible situation - please know you're in my prayers.

What if your husband stayed home with your cat while you go to visit your grandmother? Just a thought...

~Lauren

Erica said...

Does your veterinarian take in boarders? Many vet clinics take in boarders on the side, and perhaps in this circumstance, even if they don't normally, they may make an exception. What was wrong with your poor kitty??

kerry said...

**hugs** I hope both Grandmother and Canela recover and get back to being themselves.

I don't think you're horrible for caring about your family and your kitty. I think it makes you caring.

Albany Jane said...

Keeping you and yours in my thoughts. Tough situation, WL, hope all works out.

Green said...

Healing vibes to your grandma AND kitty. Do you have a trusted cat-sitter who can watch the cat for you, who'll pet her and fuss over her rather than just boarding her at the animal hospital? I think that's the way to go. A good friend with the cat, you with your grandma.

plam said...

I hope that everything works out for the best. It's a tough situation.

Anonymous said...

Maybe go visit your grandmother but not for as long as you originally wanted to. Or postpone going a couple of days until the cat feels better.

Amy said...

You are in my thoughts! I hope Mommom Jewel and Canela both heal quickly.

MsCatCalls said...

I hope your vet can give you some guidance about what Canela needs and your Grandmother's doctors about what she needs . Its a really tough choice you just can't be in two places at once but whatever decision you make isn't going to make you a bad person . Best regards x

Jean_Phx said...

I agree with putting off mommom jewel for a fews days for the cat to repair. They tend to recoup fast and mommom may need you for a longer period of time. And I also agree with the trusted friend for canela if you have to get to mommom quickly. My prayers and with you and those that need you right now.

HeatherV said...

Of course you feel just as awful about your cat - she's part of your family.

Hugs to you and positive thoughts to your family. I hope everything works out all right.

rockygrace said...

I'll be thinking of your grandma and your cat (and you) - I hope things work out okay.

Emma said...

I really hope they both get better. Miss you!!

Anonymous said...

Your pets are like your children don't feel bad.
I had to start a new job and had to travel just when my cat was ill and I was so worried that something would happen and that the cat sitter wouldn't do a good job!

TK said...

My prayers sent and what Jean said. Pets like people like us have are just as much family as humans. It's like having a sick kid but worse in some ways because our animals can't talk and tend to hide how bad they are feeling.

Mommom would tell you to take care of your cat, then come see her. But find out from doctors and family how serious it is, as women who have heart attacks often have another soon after.

Either place an excellent pet sitter at home with Canela who can house sit as well and give medication etc. to your cat, or Hubby stays and you fly to Mommom in a couple more days, to get there whenever the equivalent of getting there by car would be. That gives you more time at home with Canela. You can always Greyhound or train back, THAT would certainly be blog fodder!

In a couple more days Canela will either be much better or worse, in which case you're faced with another decision. Knowing cats my guess is better. If it's kidneys or diabetes, cats often rally fairly quickly with treatment. If it's kidneys ask about giving subcutaneous hydration at home. It's fairly easy (as easy as anything with a cat is) and much less expensive than having a vet do it.

TK said...

Sorry, also what Green said, and MsCatCalls. No decision you make on this will make you a bad person! This isn't personal, it's just life and this stuff happens. All you can do is the best you can do under the circumstances, which are very hard right now.

I wouldn't board the cat with the vet unless they have overnight care, otherwise they are alone in a cage overnight, not a good thing.

Trillian said...

I certainly wouldn't fault you if you wanted to put off visiting your grandma until you were sure of your cat's health. I have lost my mother, my grandparents, and a close uncle and was able to soldier on, but when my cat died, I about lost my mind. As much as I love my family, Chloe was there for me every day.

I hope both your Mommom and Canela pull through ok.

Sinclair said...

Don't feel guilty if your level of love for your cat equates the love you have for your grandma.

My cat had leukemia and the stress from the move to MD triggered it. We had to put him down 2 weeks ago and I still cry when I come home.

Also don't leave her at the vets. New surroundings make them stressed and nervous. It's better to have a friend stay at your place and watch over her.

I'm sorry about your grandma too - I hope you get to see her and she feels better soon!

And of course, I'll be praying for you, grandma and canela.

Fancy Schmancy said...

My heart goes out to you. No solutions, just that you're in my thoughts.

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